old school

the last few weeks have been pretty exhausting. we got our ep back from press, and that was cool. fall really hit stride, and that was cool. i found a huge archive of old family photos, and that was cool. one little gold nugget of my early days lies below:



on a sadder note, i had a friend several years younger than myself die in a car wreck over the weekend, and that fucking sucks huge hairy balls. sometimes, death makes sense to me. the natural way of things. the way it is if you dig. other times, it seems like somebody "up there" fucked up. there must be a mistake. it is so utterly wrong in every sense of the word that it makes you physically sick.

which brings me to this video,



jim henson's death was the first time i felt sick from hearing someone had died.

i was in the second grade, and it was in the cafeteria (which smelled a lot like kid puke and dirty bleach water). i remember some dude sitting across from me breaking the news and the fact that i was wearing black white washed jeans.

getting news that hits you that hard is really an indescribable feeling. if you've ever blacked out and thrown up on yourself, while sober, it's as close as i can put into words. the world zooms out and you're stuck there looking at your shitty cheese sandwich on bunny bread.

and so, it is with this video clip of kermit the frog singing "the rainbow connection", that i leave you. a lot of people hate this song, but i get all weepy and shit everytime i hear it. for real.